Independence

This is my new address.
I just moved in yesterday to my new home here in an apartment near Trinoma. It's just a few minutes away from my home.

It's a studio type unit with 2 cabinets, 2 beds, a refrigerator, a/c & electric stove. All for a very affordable monthly fee. Not bad since I wanted a place which is fully furnished so I dont have to buy everything and spend too much on furniture and appliances.

During the last couple of weeks I've been shopping for new stuff for my unit, learning how to cook, packing and unpacking boxes and been convincing myself that everything's going to be fine. I've been thinking that this is a good thing for me, I'll learn how to be more independent, more disciplined and hopefully more fit to be an FA! hahaha! :)

Yes, I'm all alone. Hmm.. hopefully I can get through this thing that they call "independence" (sounds more like "loneliness" to me). Come to think of it, maybe I'll sleep over at my tita's house on oct 31 until the Halloween fright passes. LOL! I dont think Ill be able to survive here alone and have noone to run to when I get paranoid!

Anyway, I need to be wiser about spending money and time management. I've been supporting myself for more than a year but now that I moved out, I think things are going to be much more difficult. I dont know how to cook real food! But I can make perfect fried eggs and I just learned how to use a rice cooker! LOL! My mom always cooks for us so I never really learned how to cook special stuff except for fried ulam and we dont use rice cooker at home. heehee.. I also need to do my own household chores which means less time for work.

I just finished cleaning up the wooden chips that the maintenance guy chipped off from my door. I had him install new locks and chains. Not much to do here but sit in front of my laptop, surf and work so I figured I'd add a new post to this blog.

Im really hoping this is a start of something really good for me. My friends say that I'll get something really good in return for all the problems that I'm experiencing - I hope when they said "something really good" they meant me becoming an FA. hahahaha!

cheers!

fighting genetics and everything else

Unlike other aspiring FAs that I see in the PEX FA thread, I am not born to be an FA. :(

i am not born to have smooth skin and pimple free face! lol!
i also have dark knees and a lot of scars all over my legs (i'm talking about keloid scars here) that I got from a very happy childhood. haha.. (I used to rock those big mountain bikes and run around the streets with my barkada playing patintero and black one to three..)
i have blackheads and the occasional pimples.
i used to have crooked teeth.
i am also not blessed with a sexy figure.
i didnt discover the powerful effect of applying moisturizing lotion until I was in college! (funny but true)
i am very thankful that I stand 5'3" or 5'4" though.
i am thankful that i can easily shed off a few pounds when I need to.
i am very thankful that i was blessed enough to be able to go to a good school so i'm 'okay' when it comes to english communication skills.
i am thankful that i'm a hardworker.
i am also thankful that God blessed me with just the right amount of luck in my life and i'm hoping he will again bless me with another jar of luck that i'll need so that i can also share it with others! :)

Ok, that's just the intro. heehee! :P

i am writing this blogpost so that i can (somehow)help other aspiring FAs who also have problems with scars, dark knees, body weight, etc. Actually, I don't think I can squeeze all the info into one post so i think i'll be writing a 'series' of posts about them.

a scar here, a scar there, oh! scars everywhere! hahahaha!

after working out, i went to Belo Trinoma to get my scars fixed.
i was supposed to go there tomorrow but since i cant wait, i asked if i can have my Tret peel today. all the people there are so nice! they set it up at 7:30pm which made me the last patient of the day.

anyway, i have talked to dra geraldez (from belo) about this. she saw my scars and told me that i had to undergo a procedure called Tretinoin peel which is a kind of chemical peel so that the dark scars would lighten up and match my skin tone. the peeling would take 3 to 5 days and i would need to undergo multiple sessions depending on the degree of darkness of each scar.
i also have to undergo a laser treatment for those light keloid scars. this laser treatment will make my keloid scars dark enough to match my skin tone as well. dra said that after the laser treatment, a few chemical peeling sessions might also be needed.

the rates of the procedure depends on the extent of darkness and the number of scars that needs to be peeled. Tret peel cost me P4000 for all the scars that i have on my legs -so i'm really hoping to get the results that i'm expecting.

she also applied some of the peeling solution to some parts of my toes which were darkened by always wearing flip-flops and not wearing sunscreen. ( i didnt realize that i also have to apply sunscreen on my feet everytime i go out on flip flops! :D)

anyway, i had to remove my pants so that Dra can see all of the scars.
then, Becky - one of the nurses/assistants had to wash my legs with soap to wash off the lotion that i applied coz she forgot to tell me that i'm not supposed to apply lotion before the procedure. heehee.
she also applied a 'drying solution' so that my skin would be able to absorb the chemical peel when Dra applies it.
after that, Dra applied the tretinoin peel. it wasnt painful or anything. the solution looked like the lotion that is used for mosquito bites and allergies ( forgot the name). it was color brown.
Becky used a hairdryer to dry it so that it can be absorbed by my skin much faster than air drying it. plus, it wont go to my pants when i put them back on.

i'm supposed to let the solution stay there for 7 hours and then wash it with soap. I dont think it will be peeling soon though, i think the solution isnt strong enough to make my scars peel - not until 3 days. (ang kapal ng balat ko! lol!)

i was told to stop applying lotion on my legs and stop using body scrubs. huhuhu! I need lotion! I desperately need it! :(

Dra gave me another option so that i can see visible improvements much faster than just waiting for tret peel to do its job alone. she told me i can undergo Dry dermabrasion, which i think is also Power peel except power peel is for the face. heehee.

she said dry dermabrasion can remove dead skin cells from my legs particularly on my scars. this will help hasten the improvements. Anyway, if i remember correctly it also costs 4000+. i'm still thinking about it. too expensive!

oh, and i bought two meds that i will need to apply to the scars. belo white - for AM. tyrosinase inhibitor - for PM. i should apply it religiously everyday! (goodluck to me) heehee.

just washed my legs and applied tyrosinase! hehe. i hope that this treatment will show some improvements soon. i'm counting on Belo since they are known to solve these types of problems! hehehe.. :)

i will upload related photos on my next blogpost. need to go to bed. heehee.

Goodluck to everyone who will be going to QR OD in Cebu on Oct 18! My prayers are with you guys! :) *sigh* inggit ako sa inyo. hehe

Until I'm Over aged

As one of the steps in getting myself ready for Open Days, interviews and to know more about the profession from real FAs themselves, I am reading the very popular FA thread in Pinoy exchange. Whew! I think this has more than 150 pages and I think I've read around 50 pages of it already! I didnt start at the beginning of the thread. I started reading at about page 100 and I was so consumed by the excitement in reading all the interesting stuff there! I am really learning AL LOT from all the FAs, ex FAs, FA wannabes, and those who went to ODs and assessments and nailed it!!! *sigh* makes me want to go to ODs already! But I know It's not the right time yet. (I still have a lot of fixing to do!!!)

Anyway, whenever I have a question about my life or career (especially about my dream job) I always checkout the FB application 'Today God wants you to know'... And so, this is the message today:

"You've got to live life, not think about it. Step into the midst of things, try and fail and learn and stand up again. The question is not whether you will or will not make mistakes - you will. The question is do you want to learn and grow, or do you want to shrink back and be stuck? Take that step you've been avoiding. You can succeed, or you can get feedback that it didn't work, but in either case you are sure to feel alive."

I know it's talking about my plans to pursue my dream job and God always speaks in perfect timing. This is exactly what I am planning to do once I'm done 'fixing' and once I'm ready to go. I'll go to every OD and just do my best!!!! Of course I don't expect to nail the first OD but I will try to give my best and expect the worst! Well, when I want something, this is how I do it! Try and try and try my best! and when I fail?! I'll learn, improve and try harder next time!!!.

I believe, with God's help I just need to gather all my energy and focus it to the only thing that I want, I will get it! I will try my best and never stop or get tired.... UNTIL I'M OVER AGED! :D

Remind Cams

This is not my first time to put up a blog. I made a couple of 'personal' blogs years ago and didn't follow through after publishing my first post (LOL!). I was too lazy and didn't have anything to write about - yeah, you heard it, my life is plain boring, or so I thought...

Although I have done this a hundred times (I put up blogs as part of my job), putting up a personal blog and publishing my thoughts for thousands of people from different parts of the world to read is a big step for me. So, I will try to make my identity as private as possible. heehee..

Now, about my little blog..

If you're reading my blog for the first time, you're probably wondering about the name of this blog - Chasing My Wings. Well, this is because a group of beautiful people inspired me to also put up a blog and also write about my own dilemmas that I'll be bumping into as I venture into the world of becoming a flight attendant.

I want this blog to serve as a reminder to myself that I only have 9 days and 2 years (as of now) to be able to claim my dream job (and I've gotta move my ass fast! I'm getting old!!!). Would also like to help other aspiring FA wannabes that will be reading my blog and maybe someday be able to inpire them (when I get hired by one of the most prestigious airlines! haha! no harm in assuming, right?).

So, do I think I can do this within 2 years?! I know, with God's help I can. :)